Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Week 7 Complete - A 5 and a 6

Good morning! On this day, the start of my 8th week on Medifast, I report that I am officially 157.8 lbs, meaning I lost 2.3 lbs for the week, and 26.1 lbs total! Yay!!!!!

I can't tell you how excited I am to see that 5 - I am officially a lower weight than I have been since before Matt and I got engaged. I'm only 12.8 lbs away from my goal!

In other news, I tried on a size 6 dress at a little boutique here in town yesterday, and it fit perfectly! Eeee! I tried on a size 6 jeans, and I'm not quite there yet. They buttoned, but the muffin top I was sportin' along with a squished-to-nothingness booty, made me think that I should skip them for now. :)

One thing I'm really disappointed about right now is my wedding ring - it is officially too big for me to wear. It falls off all the time. I went to a jeweler yesterday to see what it would cost to get it resized, and they told me $250! I'm going to shop around for other prices, but if it is going to cost that much, I will have to wait for awhile. It breaks my heart (and Matt's) to not be wearing it, but I don't want to lose it. I've been wearing it on a chain around my neck.  I did buy a silly ring yesterday to cope with the "naked" feeling you get when you don't have your wedding ring on, but it does not look like a wedding ring.

So, I have a confession to make. I'm going to eat Mexican food tonight. I've been craving chips and guacamole like you can't imagine. I'm not going to pig out - in fact, the only thing I'm going to eat off plan are the chips and guacamole. The rest of my meal will fit into lean and green guidelines. I'm ok with this decision...I hope I don't regret it at the end of the week...but if I do, I will have to be comfortable with the decision to go off plan.

Happy Tuesday! Ciao for now! - B

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Days 43-46: PMS

So, I've felt like a major b*tch for the last 24 hours. I was worried about it at first, but then I remembered this thing called a period...oh yeah. Haven't had one of those in quite awhile.

If you are sensitive to TMI, please, avert your eyes at this point.

I had an IUD "installed" in November - I was literally spotting until this last Monday. Uck. Then, just as the gray clouds were lifting, I started cramping. Feeling bloated. Getting irritable. My initial thought was, "Something is wrong...my IUD is doing weird things to my body or I am pregnant." Then, I realized that I "get" to start having periods again, and I think that is what I'm going through. PMS.

I'm sure you other ladies can relate to what my issue is here when it comes to staying motivated with a weight-loss plan. If I love chocolate with a passion the rest of the month, imagine how ravenous I am during this precious time. I also want carbs. Crusty bread with wine and cheese. Chicken Alfredo. Pizza with every topping known to man.

Yesterday was a tough day. I got half-way through it and almost threw in the towel. Matt and I were making plans for a date night, as my parents so graciously agreed to watch the kidlets, and Matt wanted to go out to dinner. Normally, I would have said, "sure, I can find a lean and green on the menu." But, I had my lean and green for lunch yesterday. (yum, btw. Mediterranean grilled chicken with zucchini and summer squash.) So, I told him that I didn't think I was strong enough to sit with him at a restaurant and watch him eat normal food. In my head I was thinking, "It's not fair that everyone else gets to eat normal food and I don't!" Wah, wah.

Anyway, he was fine doing something other than going out to dinner. We couldn't decide on a movie, and we couldn't think of something else to do (you get out of the loop when you only take 3 date nights a year on average.) so we were just going to drop the kids off and wing it.

From lunch time to the time Matt got home was torture. I almost called him and said, "Yes, let's go to Olive Garden so I can eat bottomless breadsticks and have a big ol' glass of red wine." But I didn't. I did however, give myself permission to indulge a bit. Not go off plan - but to have a few more carbs with on-plan recipes and foods than I would normally have. I made myself stuffed banana french toast (from www.newbeautifulme.blogspot.com) and it totally satisfied my sweet tooth. I literally drank a gallon of water.

And, I did it. I beat my cravings. I didn't give in. I won.

We ended up going to a movie at Northern Lights Theater in Salem. Matt ate pizza and had a beer, and I ate my caramel crunch Medifast bar and had a Diet Dr. Pepper. (won't do that again 2 hours before bedtime. I've been up since 2am.) We had a great time and I felt victorious.

I'm glad for this victory, because I'm not expecting a fantastic one on the scale this week. Not only because I went off plan on Valentine's Day, but because Aunt Flow is bound to arrive any day now. Good times. Good times.

TTFN! - B

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day 42 - Week 6 complete!

Okay, so clearly blogging every day is not something I can truly commit to. I am a busy lady...but, this blog is important to me, so I will write every couple of days to let you all know how I am doing.

That being said, I'm down 2.2 lbs this week! I'm at 160.1 lbs this morning. I was hoping to see the 5 after the 1 this week, but I know I'll see it next week, so it isn't a big deal. I've lost a total of 23.8 lbs, and only have 15.1 to go! I'm so close I can taste it!

The biggest non-scale victory for me this week was that I can really start to see the change in my face. I'm sure that other people noticed that right away since your face is one of the first places you typically lose weight, but it took awhile for me to see it.  I've always had round cheeks, but now I can see that there are actually cheekbones in there!

Also, I've started to embrace other things about myself. I am realizing that I love my curly hair. It is big and wild and unruly, but with the right product, it's fun and sexy. I'm feeling so much better about myself now, that I don't feel like I have to change things like my hair to feel pretty.

Yesterday, as you all know, was Valentine's Day. Normally V Day is a weak time for me. I LOVE chocolate. Love it. With a dedicated passion most could not understand.

My darling husband made me a slight variation on a lean and green - a very healthy meal of salmon and sauteed vegetables. He used a few condiments that aren't on plan, but overall, a very healthy and tasty meal. (Thank you sweetheart!)  For dessert I whipped up some chocolate mousse with berries, and we had some champagne.  So, I'm out of ketosis, and not expecting a stellar loss this next week since it takes a few days to get back into ketosis, but the treat and lovely meal with my family was worth it to me.

I'll check back in with all of you as soon as I can! Happy Tuesday! - B

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Days 37-38: Dress-up time!

I've enjoyed playing dress up in my own clothes the last couple of days. It is really fun to try on a dress or a top that I wouldn't have thought about wearing a month ago and have it fit so nicely or even in some cases be too big.

After the day I had before yesterday, I was feeling a bit down. Then Matt sent me an email that said he was feeling healthier (he too is on a mission to lose some weight) and that he was so grateful for my support and love. It made me feel a lot better about everything and helped me be strong today. I even made Valentine sugar cookies today and didn't taste them at all!

I hope everyone has a great Friday tomorrow! - B

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Day 36 - Feeling a little bit weak

Yesterday I desperately wanted to cheat. I wanted to go through the McDonald's drive thru, order a quarter pounder with cheese and french fries, and throw in the towel on this whole diet thing.

I didn't. Thank goodness.  I realize actually right now as I'm writing this, that yesterday was an incredibly stressful day for me. I'm dealing with some family stuff, and I wanted to soothe myself by eating. I did eat an extra medi-fast bar last night, but I'm ok with that. That's leaps and bounds above what I really wanted to do.

Even though I realize that the eating I wanted to do was stress-related, it doesn't take away the want at this point. As a stay-at-home mom, a lot of the other stress relieving things like taking a walk, reading a book, or screaming at the top of your lungs, are not possible all the time. Trust me, I'd love to just leave the house and go for a brisk walk whenever I feel like cheating, but naptimes, feedings, clean-up and general mommy-ness doesn't make it all that easy. This is not an excuse, it is just the way it is most of the time. I realize that I need to take a little bit of time to myself EVERY day, not just the days I feel overwhelmed. That will be my goal for this week - to take 10 minutes completely to myself when Matt is home. Not weight-loss related time, either. Just me time.

Need to get out of my funk and find my positive self again - have you seen her? - B

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Day 35/Week 5: Down 3.5!

This morning the scale greeted me with a glorious 162.3 lbs. That's 3.5 lbs lost for the week, and a total of 21.6 in 5 weeks.

More importantly, I should note that I am now officially a lower weight than I have been since December of 2005. (158) After that I started gaining weight again, and the lowest I have been able to get since then was 163. It's so exciting to me that very soon, I will be back at that 158 mark, and then blow right past it.

I don't have much else to say! It feels great to be shrinking! Thank you everyone for all of your support! - B

Monday, February 7, 2011

Day 32-34: Never Look Back

I apologize once again for my lack of dedication to my blog this week.  My kiddos have been sick for the last couple of weeks and taking computer time to myself hasn't been a huge priority.

Anyway, the title of today's blog is Never Look Back. The reason I have named it thus is that the last few days I found myself wondering what life is going to be like after I get to my goal. I wondered if I would instantly go back to my old ways once I don't have weeks worth of Medifast food sitting on my kitchen counter. What if I get to my goal, and I'm standing in the grocery checkout line and I take advantage of the "Buy 3 get one free" candy bar deal, and eat them all on the way home from the grocery store. What if I can't stop at one serving of dinner.

Then I realized that even though I'm doing so well on this program, I am still a "newborn" when it comes to this lifestyle. Today is the last day in my 5th week of my new life. That's not much time. By the time I get to my goal weight, I still won't be an expert at all of this stuff. And, that's ok. The important thing is that I keep looking forward. If I make a mistake I need to dust myself off, get back up, and move on. If I look back at the way I used to be, all I will see is what I used to be. If I look at where I am now, and keep focused on the way I want to live my life (not just the way I look, fyi), I will be able to learn from my mistakes and succeed on this journey.

A couple of nights ago I had a weak moment. I really wanted to dig into the frosting-coated animal cookies in the cupboard, but instead, I just grabbed a Medifast bar. It was an extra Medifast meal for the day, but I was satisfied, and I knew that it was a much better choice for me than something else.

Yesterday, just for fun, I went and tried on some smaller size clothes at the store. Not with the intention to buy, but just to see what I look like in some different styles that I wouldn't have felt comfortable in before. The best part was trying on a swimsuit. I didn't LOVE the way I looked, but I didn't cringe and hide my eyes either. I am looking forward to getting to my goal and feeling confident about wearing a swimsuit.  My least favorite part of my body is, and has always been, my legs and butt. I am going to work on finding exercises that help me channel my inner Beyonce' so I can love my curvy lower half. I'm not looking to make it small, I just would like it to not be so jiggly. :) Toned, strong, sexy. Then I can rock that swimsuit. :)

Between my husband, my friend Trish and I, we decided that once I hit my goal (and Matt reaches his too) that we are going to treat ourselves to a trip to Las Vegas for a weekend of fun. I'm really looking forward to it!

I'm looking forward to sharing my week 5 weight with you tomorrow. Happy Monday! - B

Friday, February 4, 2011

Day 30-31: One month stats

February 4th - one month since I started Medifast:

164.2 lbs (a total of 19.7 lost)

Bust: 38.75 (-1.75)
Waist: 32.5 (-3)
Belly: 37.5 (-3)
Hips: 39 (-2.75)
Thigh: 23 (-2.25)
Arm: 13 (-2.5)

That's a grand total of 15.25 inches lost off of my body in one month! Amazing! 2 jeans sizes!

I only have 19.2 lbs to lose to reach my goal - I'm already more than half way there!





Things are still going great - obviously! I scored a sandwich maker at Goodwill yesterday for $4. It's from 1980-something, but it was brand new in the box and works like a charm.  I used for two different recipes on my favorite recipe blog yesterday - best $4 I ever spent!

Until tomorrow!  - B

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Day 29 - Good-bye, Boobs.

I've never been a well-endowed woman. I did however maintain a curvaceous 36D after Miles was born, which was pretty nice.

Then came Maggie - my boobs got all porn-star big for a couple of weeks, then disappeared - and now that I'm losing weight they are slowly shrinking even more.

'Tis one of the perils of weight loss for women world-wide. For some, a welcome change. For others, a reminder that some things are just too good to be true. :)

The most annoying thing about it is that I don't have any bras that fit, and bras are expensive, so I don't want to go and buy new ones until I'm done losing weight. I've been wearing a sports bra every day - the uni-boob look is not so flattering on me.

Day 29 went well. I started the morning with my endorphins running high after my weigh-in, so I took advantage and hopped on the elliptical for a super-charged cardio session. Afterwards I did some crunches so that I can start to flatten my tummy a bit. I made cauliflower "mac-n-cheese" for lunch, which was pretty good. I think I need to find some cheese with a bit more bite to it - I tend to like a sharper flavor, and the light swiss laughing cow wedges I used were a bit bland in this particular recipe.

That reminds me - I thought I'd let you know what some of my favorite Medifast foods are so far:

1. S'mores crunch bars
2. Lemon Meringue crunch bars
3. Brownies
4. Essential 1 Dark Chocolate Shake
5. Fruit and Nut crunch bars
6. Parmesan cheese puffs
7. Honey Mustard pretzel sticks
8. Banana shake
9. Chocolate chip pancakes
10. Blueberry oatmeal

I briefly tried Medifast about a year and a half ago, and I did not like the food. They must have changed the formulas and recipes since then, because now, I actually really like most of the things on this list. The only one that I do anything to is the blueberry oatmeal - I like to make muffins out of it. Everything else is good just by itself.  I add ice to my shakes to make them more shake-like. I occasionally add a splash of sugar-free Torani flavored syrups to a shake to mix up the flavors a bit. I recently tried a recipe from one of the blogs for cookies made with a shake and brownie mix. Yum! I made them with the dark chocolate shake, and after refrigerating them, they have a lovely chewy texture. Not quite Mrs. Fields, but good enough to make you feel like you are indulging in a little treat. :)

Have a happy Wednesday, my faithful followers! - B

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Day 28 - Take that, Fat!

Day 28 - week 4 wrapped up. Current weight: 165.8 lbs! I lost 4.4 lbs this week for a total of 18.1 lbs in 4 weeks! I rock!

Just for your information, I will be posting my weight and other stats again along with pictures on the official month mark - which is February 4th.

Some cool things to share with you:

When Miles was 18 weeks old, I joined Weight Watchers at 193 lbs.  It took me about 4 months to get down to 163. That was the lowest I got before I started gaining weight again. (When I hit the wall and literally could not lose anymore no matter what I tried.)

Maggie is 18 weeks old today, and I'm 27.2 lbs lighter than I was at that age with Miles. I am only 2.8 lbs away from the lowest weight I've been in a VERY long time. I'm going to blast that weight out of the water very soon, and I can't wait to celebrate that victory!

This week I feel really honored that I've inspired some other people to start their Medifast journeys. I want you to know that I'm rooting for you, 100%! Together we are bringing sexy back! (Thanks Katy!)

In other news, I can see my abs again. I thought that was a pipe dream, but no - I can actually see that I have muscles there. Now I just need to start working them out :) - B