..turn, that is.
Today was a much better day. I did myself a favor and went through all my old blog posts from when I was on Medifast. How when I got to my current weight before, I was ecstatic and positive, and ready to take on the world.
After reading what myself from 6 months ago wrote, I was able to be very strong today - I stuck to my points perfectly, and didn't really even feel like I was missing out on anything.
I know part of my victory today was that I kept myself very busy. I was cleaning the house to prepare for company tomorrow, so I was never bored.
I guess my house is going to be spotless from now on.
I'm feeling recharged and ready to take this journey again. I know that food addiction is something that I will always struggle with - but it is time to take charge again for my health's sake, and for the sake of my family. I really need my children to see me making good choices.
Going for a run in the morning. Ciao! - B
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Sabotage No More
So, they say a problem shared is a problem halved, right?
Well, here goes.
I am a food addict. Big time. I need help.
I rejoined Weight Watchers this week - my weigh in (albeit fully-clothed and in the evening after dinner) was a disappointment - 166 lbs. I have gained back 24 lbs in the last 6 months. Head slap.
So, most people when they join weight watchers, including me (it is something I have done a couple of times in the past) have a honeymoon period, where they are inspired, and revved up, and can't do anything but succeed - well, it has been 2 days for me, and I am still sabotaging myself horribly.
I started today out great - my goals in mind, my points target all planned out for the day. Then, I hit the afternoon hungry monster, and I lost it, terribly. I went on a binge - I ate so much so fast, I'm not even sure what I put in my mouth.
The most embarrassing thing for me was the whip cream - I made a carton of whipped cream and ate it with a spoon. Yep. The whole thing.
So, I'm blogging again. Accountability. I think that is the only thing that can work for me right now. Knowing that someone out there might be counting on me to be strong for them when they are having a hard time too. Please let me know if you have any tips to help me stop destroying myself. I know that ultimately I need to see a therapist about this, but that just isn't in the cards, or the budget right now.
I'm in a sad and desperate place - the cold weather is setting in, I'm bored. I'm hoping this blog will help.
Well, here goes.
I am a food addict. Big time. I need help.
I rejoined Weight Watchers this week - my weigh in (albeit fully-clothed and in the evening after dinner) was a disappointment - 166 lbs. I have gained back 24 lbs in the last 6 months. Head slap.
So, most people when they join weight watchers, including me (it is something I have done a couple of times in the past) have a honeymoon period, where they are inspired, and revved up, and can't do anything but succeed - well, it has been 2 days for me, and I am still sabotaging myself horribly.
I started today out great - my goals in mind, my points target all planned out for the day. Then, I hit the afternoon hungry monster, and I lost it, terribly. I went on a binge - I ate so much so fast, I'm not even sure what I put in my mouth.
The most embarrassing thing for me was the whip cream - I made a carton of whipped cream and ate it with a spoon. Yep. The whole thing.
So, I'm blogging again. Accountability. I think that is the only thing that can work for me right now. Knowing that someone out there might be counting on me to be strong for them when they are having a hard time too. Please let me know if you have any tips to help me stop destroying myself. I know that ultimately I need to see a therapist about this, but that just isn't in the cards, or the budget right now.
I'm in a sad and desperate place - the cold weather is setting in, I'm bored. I'm hoping this blog will help.
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