My inner-feminist emerged this morning and startled me out of this coma I've been in for oh...20 years or so. The obsession with weight and size and the way I look.
I ran two miles this morning - the first time I have done so by myself in probably 2 months. I have run a few times with the kids in their stroller, but I haven't taken the soul-renewing 20 minutes to myself in quite some time. It was liberating. It was beautiful. It made me thankful for my legs, my heart, my lungs, the air we breathe, the blue sky, the ability to afford good running shoes, etc.
I realized that I have become a SLAVE to my scale. Therefore, as soon as my husband gets out of the shower in a few minutes, I am going to throw my scale away.
When I say slave, I mean slave. I don't just weigh myself once per day, I weigh myself at least twice, sometimes more. I don't know why - because all I'm watching it do right now is go up. Since my last post I have gained another 5 pounds. But guess what? As of right now, I'm going to try to stop caring about that.
I have this 20 lb, 30 inch goal in mind. No, I don't mean my measurements or my weight. I mean my daughter. She is my goal. To instill in her the confidence and strength that we as women are so blessed to have. To show her that being skinny, or being a size 4, or having perfect makeup and hair, mean so little.
What matters is health. Happiness. Love. Gratitude. Philanthropy. Humor. Intelligence. With all of these things comes a beauty that no number on a scale or size of jeans can duplicate. When a woman is beautiful on the inside, she is beautiful on the outside, no matter what her waist measurement is.
I'm going to start running regularly again. For my health, and for the meditative state it puts me in. I know that I need to "watch my weight" in the sense that I shouldn't do anything that will destroy my body, but I'm no longer going to be a slave to the numbers.
I hope this post finds you all happy, healthy and loved today. May your day be filled with blessings!
B
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Day 1 - Beans, Beans, The Magical Fruit (hopefully!)
As promised, my current weight and measurements are as follows:
Weight: 149.7 (yesterday I was 148 - I think my scale needs new batteries, but for now, we'll go with the higher weight.)
Bust: 37 in.
Arm: 12.5 in.
Waist: 32 in.
Belly: 36 in.
Hip: 38.5 in.
Thigh: 22.75 in.
Blogging yesterday helped me realize that the 4 hour body diet is not out of my reach, so I started it today. Pretty much I eat legumes, cruciferous veggies and protein 6 days a week (4 times a day, as much as I want to feel full) and then have a once per week "binge" day where I can eat whatever I want all day after a high-protein breakfast. I'm going to try it for a month, and see how I do. People that have been doing it for years swear by it, and I don't figure it is that hard to eat this way, but we shall see. If I can do medi-fast, I can do anything.
Also as promised, I took pictures of everything I ate today - I stuck to the plan perfectly - but it turned out to be too much food for me. I ended up saving half of my dinner meal, and I will have it for breakfast tomorrow.
The spinach is from our garden! It is pretty cool to eat fresh spinach every day.
I did awesome for day 1! I'm now on the search for a kettle bell to do some exercises at home and will continue running a couple times a week. Those interested should check out www.fourhourbody.com - the information about this plan is absolutely fascinating. Some of it seems a little bogus, but much seems doable and sustainable.
Just so you know, I'll be weighing daily and measuring weekly. I'll post the weekly measurements and weight on facebook - my true accountability forum. :)
Until tomorrow my friends - B
Weight: 149.7 (yesterday I was 148 - I think my scale needs new batteries, but for now, we'll go with the higher weight.)
Bust: 37 in.
Arm: 12.5 in.
Waist: 32 in.
Belly: 36 in.
Hip: 38.5 in.
Thigh: 22.75 in.
Blogging yesterday helped me realize that the 4 hour body diet is not out of my reach, so I started it today. Pretty much I eat legumes, cruciferous veggies and protein 6 days a week (4 times a day, as much as I want to feel full) and then have a once per week "binge" day where I can eat whatever I want all day after a high-protein breakfast. I'm going to try it for a month, and see how I do. People that have been doing it for years swear by it, and I don't figure it is that hard to eat this way, but we shall see. If I can do medi-fast, I can do anything.
Also as promised, I took pictures of everything I ate today - I stuck to the plan perfectly - but it turned out to be too much food for me. I ended up saving half of my dinner meal, and I will have it for breakfast tomorrow.
The spinach is from our garden! It is pretty cool to eat fresh spinach every day.
I did awesome for day 1! I'm now on the search for a kettle bell to do some exercises at home and will continue running a couple times a week. Those interested should check out www.fourhourbody.com - the information about this plan is absolutely fascinating. Some of it seems a little bogus, but much seems doable and sustainable.
Just so you know, I'll be weighing daily and measuring weekly. I'll post the weekly measurements and weight on facebook - my true accountability forum. :)
Until tomorrow my friends - B
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
New Experiment
Okay, so clearly I'm not on medi-fast anymore, and I didn't do very well at tracking my transition off the program. That's because I didn't do very well transitioning off the program at all - and I was too embarrassed to admit it. So, here's the truth. I have not been eating great over the last two months, and as a result, I have gained back a few pounds. Not enough for me to change sizes or feel like I've undone any of the hard work I did, but still, I wanted to continue going the other direction for a few pounds. Now I'm back at 148, and my ultimate goal is to be in the 120's - meaning 129.9. Tomorrow morning I'm going to restart my tracking and measuring, and I will post here.
I really do think blogging is part of the big picture for me. It helps to hold me accountable. I don't want to fail in the eyes of my readers, so if I commit to blogging each day, I'll commit to my diet each day.
I have been reading a little bit about the 4 hour body diet - and while much of it is extreme and would not fit well into my lifestyle, there are pieces of it that would be very beneficial - one of which is the advice to take a picture of everything you eat before you eat it. Most people don't want to take a picture of something un-healthy. My plan is to take a picture of everything I eat and post it on my blog daily. That way I'm being held accountable in that way too.
Another element of the 4 hour body diet is to increase protein at breakfast - at least 30 grams. In fact, the creator of this program said that if you don't do anything else on the plan, following this step will give you noticeable results. Worth a shot. I'm sure that I can always use a little more protein.
With that, I'll write tomorrow and post pictures of what I consume. I'll try not to embarrass myself too much. :) B
I really do think blogging is part of the big picture for me. It helps to hold me accountable. I don't want to fail in the eyes of my readers, so if I commit to blogging each day, I'll commit to my diet each day.
I have been reading a little bit about the 4 hour body diet - and while much of it is extreme and would not fit well into my lifestyle, there are pieces of it that would be very beneficial - one of which is the advice to take a picture of everything you eat before you eat it. Most people don't want to take a picture of something un-healthy. My plan is to take a picture of everything I eat and post it on my blog daily. That way I'm being held accountable in that way too.
Another element of the 4 hour body diet is to increase protein at breakfast - at least 30 grams. In fact, the creator of this program said that if you don't do anything else on the plan, following this step will give you noticeable results. Worth a shot. I'm sure that I can always use a little more protein.
With that, I'll write tomorrow and post pictures of what I consume. I'll try not to embarrass myself too much. :) B
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Week 14 - Starting Transition Today!
I made it - 14 weeks on medifast, went past my goal, lost 3 pant sizes - lost a load of inches. I know now that because I could do this, I can do anything.
My weight this morning is 142, for 1.5 down this week, and a total of 41.8 lbs down in 14 weeks.
Measurements:
Bust: 35 (-5.5 - So long, boobs.)
Arm: 11.75 (-3.75 - still working on the batwings, but at least I can wear something sleeveless)
Waist: 28.5 (-7 - yes, 7 inches from my waist IS awesome)
Belly: 32.75 (-7.75 - no more muffin top!)
Hips: 35 (-6.75 - my hips don't lie...)
Thigh: 20.5 (-4.75 - I am the thigh master)
A total of 35.5 inches gone from my body in 14 weeks! I lost an average of 2.98 lbs per week. I am excited to lose a few more on transition as well.
I want the weather to get warmer so I can wear my new shorts. For the first time in my whole life, I LOVE my legs. I'm sure running has a lot to do with that - I go every other day, and I'm currently training for a half marathon.
Trish and I are headed to Disneyland in June - my goal is to be toned enough to wear a 2 piece bathing suit at the hotel pool. I've transformed so much already - getting some muscle should be a piece of cake. :) Sugar-free cake, of course.
I'll keep blogging as I go through transition - until next time! - B
My weight this morning is 142, for 1.5 down this week, and a total of 41.8 lbs down in 14 weeks.
Measurements:
Bust: 35 (-5.5 - So long, boobs.)
Arm: 11.75 (-3.75 - still working on the batwings, but at least I can wear something sleeveless)
Waist: 28.5 (-7 - yes, 7 inches from my waist IS awesome)
Belly: 32.75 (-7.75 - no more muffin top!)
Hips: 35 (-6.75 - my hips don't lie...)
Thigh: 20.5 (-4.75 - I am the thigh master)
A total of 35.5 inches gone from my body in 14 weeks! I lost an average of 2.98 lbs per week. I am excited to lose a few more on transition as well.
I want the weather to get warmer so I can wear my new shorts. For the first time in my whole life, I LOVE my legs. I'm sure running has a lot to do with that - I go every other day, and I'm currently training for a half marathon.
Trish and I are headed to Disneyland in June - my goal is to be toned enough to wear a 2 piece bathing suit at the hotel pool. I've transformed so much already - getting some muscle should be a piece of cake. :) Sugar-free cake, of course.
I'll keep blogging as I go through transition - until next time! - B
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Week 13 - YAHOO!!!!
I'm posting my week 13 stats early, because I'm leaving on a jet plane for Denver tomorrow, and I'm going to try to stay away from all things computer-ish.
Are you ready, are you ready, are you ready?????
143.5.....That's down 3.8 lbs in 5 days, and 1.5 lbs BELOW MY GOAL!!! I did it! I freakin' did it!
I'm so happy. I'm so excited. I'm so confident. I'm so healthy. I'm addicted to running. I have so much energy. I don't even know who this person is, but I love her, and I'm never letting her go.
I have one more week on Medifast full-time, and then I move on to transition. I'll save my measurements until next week's last "full time" weigh in, and I'll post my "after" pictures after I complete transition.
Wish me luck in Denver on vacation! I know I can do it!!!!!
Are you ready, are you ready, are you ready?????
143.5.....That's down 3.8 lbs in 5 days, and 1.5 lbs BELOW MY GOAL!!! I did it! I freakin' did it!
I'm so happy. I'm so excited. I'm so confident. I'm so healthy. I'm addicted to running. I have so much energy. I don't even know who this person is, but I love her, and I'm never letting her go.
I have one more week on Medifast full-time, and then I move on to transition. I'll save my measurements until next week's last "full time" weigh in, and I'll post my "after" pictures after I complete transition.
Wish me luck in Denver on vacation! I know I can do it!!!!!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Week 12 - Slowing down...
I lost 1.3 lbs this week, putting my weight at 147.3. It seems these last few pounds are taking their sweet time to come off.
I'm sure I would have lost more had I not had a flu-like day this week - I was not well at all, and the next day, although I tried, medifast food was not enough to replenish my body. I needed to eat more to feel well again.
I have been a little lax though - not measuring my protein, eyeballing my vegetables and condiments. My last two weeks on this program, I'm going hardcore. Balls to the wall. Getting these last 2.3 lbs off and then some!
The best part about this week though was the shopping...I am now a size 4 in most things, and the things that I'm not are a 6. My "big" size is a 6. That just blows my mind.
Two weeks left and then transition. Wish me luck!
I'm sure I would have lost more had I not had a flu-like day this week - I was not well at all, and the next day, although I tried, medifast food was not enough to replenish my body. I needed to eat more to feel well again.
I have been a little lax though - not measuring my protein, eyeballing my vegetables and condiments. My last two weeks on this program, I'm going hardcore. Balls to the wall. Getting these last 2.3 lbs off and then some!
The best part about this week though was the shopping...I am now a size 4 in most things, and the things that I'm not are a 6. My "big" size is a 6. That just blows my mind.
Two weeks left and then transition. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Week 11 - Saturday night....ehhh.
I went out with my brother Saturday night. For sushi. And drinks. It was the death of my loss this week...only down .2 - 148.6 lbs.
Was it worth it? Yes. I ask myself this to make sure that I'm still in a good mental state when it comes to this whole weight loss thing. I definitely am. I know that a very over-indulgent night such as Saturday will set me back a bit, but I also know that an over-indulgent night does not ruin my whole outlook about my health, weight, etc. like it did before.
We had a wonderful time, and now I'm back on the wagon - the last 3.6 lbs is going to come off lickety split! I'm on plan for 3 more weeks full time, then I move to transition.
I'm still not sure about how it will go after transition. I've been slacking a bit the last few weeks, and now I need to get back on track with what my goals are in this whole thing...I'm going to make meal plans for myself this week to make sure that my first few weeks off program are easy for me.
Still, I'm feeling fabulous. I look fabulous too. For the first time in the 10.5 years I've been with my husband, he told me that I'm hot. He's always said I was beautiful, or cute, or whatever, but now I'm hot. Gratification. :)
- B
Was it worth it? Yes. I ask myself this to make sure that I'm still in a good mental state when it comes to this whole weight loss thing. I definitely am. I know that a very over-indulgent night such as Saturday will set me back a bit, but I also know that an over-indulgent night does not ruin my whole outlook about my health, weight, etc. like it did before.
We had a wonderful time, and now I'm back on the wagon - the last 3.6 lbs is going to come off lickety split! I'm on plan for 3 more weeks full time, then I move to transition.
I'm still not sure about how it will go after transition. I've been slacking a bit the last few weeks, and now I need to get back on track with what my goals are in this whole thing...I'm going to make meal plans for myself this week to make sure that my first few weeks off program are easy for me.
Still, I'm feeling fabulous. I look fabulous too. For the first time in the 10.5 years I've been with my husband, he told me that I'm hot. He's always said I was beautiful, or cute, or whatever, but now I'm hot. Gratification. :)
- B
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