..turn, that is.
Today was a much better day. I did myself a favor and went through all my old blog posts from when I was on Medifast. How when I got to my current weight before, I was ecstatic and positive, and ready to take on the world.
After reading what myself from 6 months ago wrote, I was able to be very strong today - I stuck to my points perfectly, and didn't really even feel like I was missing out on anything.
I know part of my victory today was that I kept myself very busy. I was cleaning the house to prepare for company tomorrow, so I was never bored.
I guess my house is going to be spotless from now on.
I'm feeling recharged and ready to take this journey again. I know that food addiction is something that I will always struggle with - but it is time to take charge again for my health's sake, and for the sake of my family. I really need my children to see me making good choices.
Going for a run in the morning. Ciao! - B
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Sabotage No More
So, they say a problem shared is a problem halved, right?
Well, here goes.
I am a food addict. Big time. I need help.
I rejoined Weight Watchers this week - my weigh in (albeit fully-clothed and in the evening after dinner) was a disappointment - 166 lbs. I have gained back 24 lbs in the last 6 months. Head slap.
So, most people when they join weight watchers, including me (it is something I have done a couple of times in the past) have a honeymoon period, where they are inspired, and revved up, and can't do anything but succeed - well, it has been 2 days for me, and I am still sabotaging myself horribly.
I started today out great - my goals in mind, my points target all planned out for the day. Then, I hit the afternoon hungry monster, and I lost it, terribly. I went on a binge - I ate so much so fast, I'm not even sure what I put in my mouth.
The most embarrassing thing for me was the whip cream - I made a carton of whipped cream and ate it with a spoon. Yep. The whole thing.
So, I'm blogging again. Accountability. I think that is the only thing that can work for me right now. Knowing that someone out there might be counting on me to be strong for them when they are having a hard time too. Please let me know if you have any tips to help me stop destroying myself. I know that ultimately I need to see a therapist about this, but that just isn't in the cards, or the budget right now.
I'm in a sad and desperate place - the cold weather is setting in, I'm bored. I'm hoping this blog will help.
Well, here goes.
I am a food addict. Big time. I need help.
I rejoined Weight Watchers this week - my weigh in (albeit fully-clothed and in the evening after dinner) was a disappointment - 166 lbs. I have gained back 24 lbs in the last 6 months. Head slap.
So, most people when they join weight watchers, including me (it is something I have done a couple of times in the past) have a honeymoon period, where they are inspired, and revved up, and can't do anything but succeed - well, it has been 2 days for me, and I am still sabotaging myself horribly.
I started today out great - my goals in mind, my points target all planned out for the day. Then, I hit the afternoon hungry monster, and I lost it, terribly. I went on a binge - I ate so much so fast, I'm not even sure what I put in my mouth.
The most embarrassing thing for me was the whip cream - I made a carton of whipped cream and ate it with a spoon. Yep. The whole thing.
So, I'm blogging again. Accountability. I think that is the only thing that can work for me right now. Knowing that someone out there might be counting on me to be strong for them when they are having a hard time too. Please let me know if you have any tips to help me stop destroying myself. I know that ultimately I need to see a therapist about this, but that just isn't in the cards, or the budget right now.
I'm in a sad and desperate place - the cold weather is setting in, I'm bored. I'm hoping this blog will help.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
A slap in the face...
My inner-feminist emerged this morning and startled me out of this coma I've been in for oh...20 years or so. The obsession with weight and size and the way I look.
I ran two miles this morning - the first time I have done so by myself in probably 2 months. I have run a few times with the kids in their stroller, but I haven't taken the soul-renewing 20 minutes to myself in quite some time. It was liberating. It was beautiful. It made me thankful for my legs, my heart, my lungs, the air we breathe, the blue sky, the ability to afford good running shoes, etc.
I realized that I have become a SLAVE to my scale. Therefore, as soon as my husband gets out of the shower in a few minutes, I am going to throw my scale away.
When I say slave, I mean slave. I don't just weigh myself once per day, I weigh myself at least twice, sometimes more. I don't know why - because all I'm watching it do right now is go up. Since my last post I have gained another 5 pounds. But guess what? As of right now, I'm going to try to stop caring about that.
I have this 20 lb, 30 inch goal in mind. No, I don't mean my measurements or my weight. I mean my daughter. She is my goal. To instill in her the confidence and strength that we as women are so blessed to have. To show her that being skinny, or being a size 4, or having perfect makeup and hair, mean so little.
What matters is health. Happiness. Love. Gratitude. Philanthropy. Humor. Intelligence. With all of these things comes a beauty that no number on a scale or size of jeans can duplicate. When a woman is beautiful on the inside, she is beautiful on the outside, no matter what her waist measurement is.
I'm going to start running regularly again. For my health, and for the meditative state it puts me in. I know that I need to "watch my weight" in the sense that I shouldn't do anything that will destroy my body, but I'm no longer going to be a slave to the numbers.
I hope this post finds you all happy, healthy and loved today. May your day be filled with blessings!
B
I ran two miles this morning - the first time I have done so by myself in probably 2 months. I have run a few times with the kids in their stroller, but I haven't taken the soul-renewing 20 minutes to myself in quite some time. It was liberating. It was beautiful. It made me thankful for my legs, my heart, my lungs, the air we breathe, the blue sky, the ability to afford good running shoes, etc.
I realized that I have become a SLAVE to my scale. Therefore, as soon as my husband gets out of the shower in a few minutes, I am going to throw my scale away.
When I say slave, I mean slave. I don't just weigh myself once per day, I weigh myself at least twice, sometimes more. I don't know why - because all I'm watching it do right now is go up. Since my last post I have gained another 5 pounds. But guess what? As of right now, I'm going to try to stop caring about that.
I have this 20 lb, 30 inch goal in mind. No, I don't mean my measurements or my weight. I mean my daughter. She is my goal. To instill in her the confidence and strength that we as women are so blessed to have. To show her that being skinny, or being a size 4, or having perfect makeup and hair, mean so little.
What matters is health. Happiness. Love. Gratitude. Philanthropy. Humor. Intelligence. With all of these things comes a beauty that no number on a scale or size of jeans can duplicate. When a woman is beautiful on the inside, she is beautiful on the outside, no matter what her waist measurement is.
I'm going to start running regularly again. For my health, and for the meditative state it puts me in. I know that I need to "watch my weight" in the sense that I shouldn't do anything that will destroy my body, but I'm no longer going to be a slave to the numbers.
I hope this post finds you all happy, healthy and loved today. May your day be filled with blessings!
B
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Day 1 - Beans, Beans, The Magical Fruit (hopefully!)
As promised, my current weight and measurements are as follows:
Weight: 149.7 (yesterday I was 148 - I think my scale needs new batteries, but for now, we'll go with the higher weight.)
Bust: 37 in.
Arm: 12.5 in.
Waist: 32 in.
Belly: 36 in.
Hip: 38.5 in.
Thigh: 22.75 in.
Blogging yesterday helped me realize that the 4 hour body diet is not out of my reach, so I started it today. Pretty much I eat legumes, cruciferous veggies and protein 6 days a week (4 times a day, as much as I want to feel full) and then have a once per week "binge" day where I can eat whatever I want all day after a high-protein breakfast. I'm going to try it for a month, and see how I do. People that have been doing it for years swear by it, and I don't figure it is that hard to eat this way, but we shall see. If I can do medi-fast, I can do anything.
Also as promised, I took pictures of everything I ate today - I stuck to the plan perfectly - but it turned out to be too much food for me. I ended up saving half of my dinner meal, and I will have it for breakfast tomorrow.
The spinach is from our garden! It is pretty cool to eat fresh spinach every day.
I did awesome for day 1! I'm now on the search for a kettle bell to do some exercises at home and will continue running a couple times a week. Those interested should check out www.fourhourbody.com - the information about this plan is absolutely fascinating. Some of it seems a little bogus, but much seems doable and sustainable.
Just so you know, I'll be weighing daily and measuring weekly. I'll post the weekly measurements and weight on facebook - my true accountability forum. :)
Until tomorrow my friends - B
Weight: 149.7 (yesterday I was 148 - I think my scale needs new batteries, but for now, we'll go with the higher weight.)
Bust: 37 in.
Arm: 12.5 in.
Waist: 32 in.
Belly: 36 in.
Hip: 38.5 in.
Thigh: 22.75 in.
Blogging yesterday helped me realize that the 4 hour body diet is not out of my reach, so I started it today. Pretty much I eat legumes, cruciferous veggies and protein 6 days a week (4 times a day, as much as I want to feel full) and then have a once per week "binge" day where I can eat whatever I want all day after a high-protein breakfast. I'm going to try it for a month, and see how I do. People that have been doing it for years swear by it, and I don't figure it is that hard to eat this way, but we shall see. If I can do medi-fast, I can do anything.
Also as promised, I took pictures of everything I ate today - I stuck to the plan perfectly - but it turned out to be too much food for me. I ended up saving half of my dinner meal, and I will have it for breakfast tomorrow.
The spinach is from our garden! It is pretty cool to eat fresh spinach every day.
I did awesome for day 1! I'm now on the search for a kettle bell to do some exercises at home and will continue running a couple times a week. Those interested should check out www.fourhourbody.com - the information about this plan is absolutely fascinating. Some of it seems a little bogus, but much seems doable and sustainable.
Just so you know, I'll be weighing daily and measuring weekly. I'll post the weekly measurements and weight on facebook - my true accountability forum. :)
Until tomorrow my friends - B
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
New Experiment
Okay, so clearly I'm not on medi-fast anymore, and I didn't do very well at tracking my transition off the program. That's because I didn't do very well transitioning off the program at all - and I was too embarrassed to admit it. So, here's the truth. I have not been eating great over the last two months, and as a result, I have gained back a few pounds. Not enough for me to change sizes or feel like I've undone any of the hard work I did, but still, I wanted to continue going the other direction for a few pounds. Now I'm back at 148, and my ultimate goal is to be in the 120's - meaning 129.9. Tomorrow morning I'm going to restart my tracking and measuring, and I will post here.
I really do think blogging is part of the big picture for me. It helps to hold me accountable. I don't want to fail in the eyes of my readers, so if I commit to blogging each day, I'll commit to my diet each day.
I have been reading a little bit about the 4 hour body diet - and while much of it is extreme and would not fit well into my lifestyle, there are pieces of it that would be very beneficial - one of which is the advice to take a picture of everything you eat before you eat it. Most people don't want to take a picture of something un-healthy. My plan is to take a picture of everything I eat and post it on my blog daily. That way I'm being held accountable in that way too.
Another element of the 4 hour body diet is to increase protein at breakfast - at least 30 grams. In fact, the creator of this program said that if you don't do anything else on the plan, following this step will give you noticeable results. Worth a shot. I'm sure that I can always use a little more protein.
With that, I'll write tomorrow and post pictures of what I consume. I'll try not to embarrass myself too much. :) B
I really do think blogging is part of the big picture for me. It helps to hold me accountable. I don't want to fail in the eyes of my readers, so if I commit to blogging each day, I'll commit to my diet each day.
I have been reading a little bit about the 4 hour body diet - and while much of it is extreme and would not fit well into my lifestyle, there are pieces of it that would be very beneficial - one of which is the advice to take a picture of everything you eat before you eat it. Most people don't want to take a picture of something un-healthy. My plan is to take a picture of everything I eat and post it on my blog daily. That way I'm being held accountable in that way too.
Another element of the 4 hour body diet is to increase protein at breakfast - at least 30 grams. In fact, the creator of this program said that if you don't do anything else on the plan, following this step will give you noticeable results. Worth a shot. I'm sure that I can always use a little more protein.
With that, I'll write tomorrow and post pictures of what I consume. I'll try not to embarrass myself too much. :) B
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Week 14 - Starting Transition Today!
I made it - 14 weeks on medifast, went past my goal, lost 3 pant sizes - lost a load of inches. I know now that because I could do this, I can do anything.
My weight this morning is 142, for 1.5 down this week, and a total of 41.8 lbs down in 14 weeks.
Measurements:
Bust: 35 (-5.5 - So long, boobs.)
Arm: 11.75 (-3.75 - still working on the batwings, but at least I can wear something sleeveless)
Waist: 28.5 (-7 - yes, 7 inches from my waist IS awesome)
Belly: 32.75 (-7.75 - no more muffin top!)
Hips: 35 (-6.75 - my hips don't lie...)
Thigh: 20.5 (-4.75 - I am the thigh master)
A total of 35.5 inches gone from my body in 14 weeks! I lost an average of 2.98 lbs per week. I am excited to lose a few more on transition as well.
I want the weather to get warmer so I can wear my new shorts. For the first time in my whole life, I LOVE my legs. I'm sure running has a lot to do with that - I go every other day, and I'm currently training for a half marathon.
Trish and I are headed to Disneyland in June - my goal is to be toned enough to wear a 2 piece bathing suit at the hotel pool. I've transformed so much already - getting some muscle should be a piece of cake. :) Sugar-free cake, of course.
I'll keep blogging as I go through transition - until next time! - B
My weight this morning is 142, for 1.5 down this week, and a total of 41.8 lbs down in 14 weeks.
Measurements:
Bust: 35 (-5.5 - So long, boobs.)
Arm: 11.75 (-3.75 - still working on the batwings, but at least I can wear something sleeveless)
Waist: 28.5 (-7 - yes, 7 inches from my waist IS awesome)
Belly: 32.75 (-7.75 - no more muffin top!)
Hips: 35 (-6.75 - my hips don't lie...)
Thigh: 20.5 (-4.75 - I am the thigh master)
A total of 35.5 inches gone from my body in 14 weeks! I lost an average of 2.98 lbs per week. I am excited to lose a few more on transition as well.
I want the weather to get warmer so I can wear my new shorts. For the first time in my whole life, I LOVE my legs. I'm sure running has a lot to do with that - I go every other day, and I'm currently training for a half marathon.
Trish and I are headed to Disneyland in June - my goal is to be toned enough to wear a 2 piece bathing suit at the hotel pool. I've transformed so much already - getting some muscle should be a piece of cake. :) Sugar-free cake, of course.
I'll keep blogging as I go through transition - until next time! - B
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Week 13 - YAHOO!!!!
I'm posting my week 13 stats early, because I'm leaving on a jet plane for Denver tomorrow, and I'm going to try to stay away from all things computer-ish.
Are you ready, are you ready, are you ready?????
143.5.....That's down 3.8 lbs in 5 days, and 1.5 lbs BELOW MY GOAL!!! I did it! I freakin' did it!
I'm so happy. I'm so excited. I'm so confident. I'm so healthy. I'm addicted to running. I have so much energy. I don't even know who this person is, but I love her, and I'm never letting her go.
I have one more week on Medifast full-time, and then I move on to transition. I'll save my measurements until next week's last "full time" weigh in, and I'll post my "after" pictures after I complete transition.
Wish me luck in Denver on vacation! I know I can do it!!!!!
Are you ready, are you ready, are you ready?????
143.5.....That's down 3.8 lbs in 5 days, and 1.5 lbs BELOW MY GOAL!!! I did it! I freakin' did it!
I'm so happy. I'm so excited. I'm so confident. I'm so healthy. I'm addicted to running. I have so much energy. I don't even know who this person is, but I love her, and I'm never letting her go.
I have one more week on Medifast full-time, and then I move on to transition. I'll save my measurements until next week's last "full time" weigh in, and I'll post my "after" pictures after I complete transition.
Wish me luck in Denver on vacation! I know I can do it!!!!!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Week 12 - Slowing down...
I lost 1.3 lbs this week, putting my weight at 147.3. It seems these last few pounds are taking their sweet time to come off.
I'm sure I would have lost more had I not had a flu-like day this week - I was not well at all, and the next day, although I tried, medifast food was not enough to replenish my body. I needed to eat more to feel well again.
I have been a little lax though - not measuring my protein, eyeballing my vegetables and condiments. My last two weeks on this program, I'm going hardcore. Balls to the wall. Getting these last 2.3 lbs off and then some!
The best part about this week though was the shopping...I am now a size 4 in most things, and the things that I'm not are a 6. My "big" size is a 6. That just blows my mind.
Two weeks left and then transition. Wish me luck!
I'm sure I would have lost more had I not had a flu-like day this week - I was not well at all, and the next day, although I tried, medifast food was not enough to replenish my body. I needed to eat more to feel well again.
I have been a little lax though - not measuring my protein, eyeballing my vegetables and condiments. My last two weeks on this program, I'm going hardcore. Balls to the wall. Getting these last 2.3 lbs off and then some!
The best part about this week though was the shopping...I am now a size 4 in most things, and the things that I'm not are a 6. My "big" size is a 6. That just blows my mind.
Two weeks left and then transition. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Week 11 - Saturday night....ehhh.
I went out with my brother Saturday night. For sushi. And drinks. It was the death of my loss this week...only down .2 - 148.6 lbs.
Was it worth it? Yes. I ask myself this to make sure that I'm still in a good mental state when it comes to this whole weight loss thing. I definitely am. I know that a very over-indulgent night such as Saturday will set me back a bit, but I also know that an over-indulgent night does not ruin my whole outlook about my health, weight, etc. like it did before.
We had a wonderful time, and now I'm back on the wagon - the last 3.6 lbs is going to come off lickety split! I'm on plan for 3 more weeks full time, then I move to transition.
I'm still not sure about how it will go after transition. I've been slacking a bit the last few weeks, and now I need to get back on track with what my goals are in this whole thing...I'm going to make meal plans for myself this week to make sure that my first few weeks off program are easy for me.
Still, I'm feeling fabulous. I look fabulous too. For the first time in the 10.5 years I've been with my husband, he told me that I'm hot. He's always said I was beautiful, or cute, or whatever, but now I'm hot. Gratification. :)
- B
Was it worth it? Yes. I ask myself this to make sure that I'm still in a good mental state when it comes to this whole weight loss thing. I definitely am. I know that a very over-indulgent night such as Saturday will set me back a bit, but I also know that an over-indulgent night does not ruin my whole outlook about my health, weight, etc. like it did before.
We had a wonderful time, and now I'm back on the wagon - the last 3.6 lbs is going to come off lickety split! I'm on plan for 3 more weeks full time, then I move to transition.
I'm still not sure about how it will go after transition. I've been slacking a bit the last few weeks, and now I need to get back on track with what my goals are in this whole thing...I'm going to make meal plans for myself this week to make sure that my first few weeks off program are easy for me.
Still, I'm feeling fabulous. I look fabulous too. For the first time in the 10.5 years I've been with my husband, he told me that I'm hot. He's always said I was beautiful, or cute, or whatever, but now I'm hot. Gratification. :)
- B
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Week 10 - Eeeeeeee! (part 2)
I lost another 2.2 lbs this week. I'm 148.8 lbs. I'm only 3.8 lbs away from my goal! I can't even tell you how ecstatic I am!
I had two off days this week - Saturday was the SIP festival in McMinnville, and I wanted a burrito and a glass of wine. Sunday morning was brunch at some good friends' house, and while I was as good as I could be with the food in front of me, none of it was on plan.
Anyway, I still managed to lose!
This week is going to be a very busy one for me. Thursday my Dad is getting married, Friday is my nephew's birthday party, Saturday I have a date with my older brother, and Sunday is my nephew's second birthday party along with choir rehearsal. Surely all wonderful things, but I'll be looking forward to a quiet week next week.
I totally <3 my life!
Ciao! - B
Friday, March 11, 2011
Day ??? - Eeeeee!
Ok. So I normally try to avoid weighing myself more than once per week. But, given that I have been SO close to a particular number over the last week, I had to check out the scale.
It's official! I am now closer to 100 lbs than 200 lbs! I am 149.7. I literally cannot remember the last time I could make such a statement.
4.7 lbs to my goal. 34.1 lbs lost on Medifast. 58.3 lbs lost since Maggie was born. Amazing.
On the emotional end of things, I'm doing great. I really have discovered that there is absolutely not any food that tastes as good as I currently feel. I know that I will continue to be healthy after Medifast. I know that on the rare occasion that I do need to indulge, I'll be fine, because I know now that I can get back on the wagon.
I have hip bones again. I am getting dangerously close to having a flat tummy again. (I know! I just had a baby!) I may actually have the confidence this summer to say "screw the stretch marks" and wear a two-piece bathing suit.
It's a miracle.
It's official! I am now closer to 100 lbs than 200 lbs! I am 149.7. I literally cannot remember the last time I could make such a statement.
4.7 lbs to my goal. 34.1 lbs lost on Medifast. 58.3 lbs lost since Maggie was born. Amazing.
On the emotional end of things, I'm doing great. I really have discovered that there is absolutely not any food that tastes as good as I currently feel. I know that I will continue to be healthy after Medifast. I know that on the rare occasion that I do need to indulge, I'll be fine, because I know now that I can get back on the wagon.
I have hip bones again. I am getting dangerously close to having a flat tummy again. (I know! I just had a baby!) I may actually have the confidence this summer to say "screw the stretch marks" and wear a two-piece bathing suit.
It's a miracle.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Week 9 - Is this for real?
Somebody pinch me. I'm really scared that I'm going to wake up and find that this weight loss thing has all been a dream.
I lost 4.2 lbs this week. I'm down to 151. 151! (If there was a way to capitalize numbers to make it look like I am shouting, I would do it.) I have lost 32.8 lbs in 9 weeks. I'm blown away. I rock. I totally rock.
I've been running a lot. It is so much easier to run when you are skinny. Yes, I said it. I am skinny. Most people wouldn't look at the number 151 and think that is a skinny number, but on my body, it is. I feel awesome. I'm more confident than I've ever been in my whole life. I love the way I look and I love the way I feel even more.
I am 6 pounds away from my goal. Only 6 pounds. I've never, ever been this close to my weight loss goal, no matter what it was. I can't wait to know what it feels like to reach it.
The downside...back in a 36B. My boobs have disappeared. I hope they don't completely evaporate.
Over the next few weeks I'll be seeing a few people that I haven't seen in awhile. Truth be told, I'm very excited to see their reactions. Most people that are currently in my life have never seen me this small.
I haven't craved anything off plan since my PMS week. My last shipment of Medifast food arrived yesterday - some new and different things to keep my last weeks on the plan interesting. As of right now, I'm planning on being on the plan full time for 5 more weeks. (I'm going to blow my goal of 145 out of the water in that time!) Then I will be on transition for 6 weeks.
I've been blessed to be able to share this journey with those who are paying attention. You inspire me daily, and I hope that my story has inspired you to. Here's to us and becoming the best people we can be!
Have a fabulous week my friends! - B
I lost 4.2 lbs this week. I'm down to 151. 151! (If there was a way to capitalize numbers to make it look like I am shouting, I would do it.) I have lost 32.8 lbs in 9 weeks. I'm blown away. I rock. I totally rock.
I've been running a lot. It is so much easier to run when you are skinny. Yes, I said it. I am skinny. Most people wouldn't look at the number 151 and think that is a skinny number, but on my body, it is. I feel awesome. I'm more confident than I've ever been in my whole life. I love the way I look and I love the way I feel even more.
I am 6 pounds away from my goal. Only 6 pounds. I've never, ever been this close to my weight loss goal, no matter what it was. I can't wait to know what it feels like to reach it.
The downside...back in a 36B. My boobs have disappeared. I hope they don't completely evaporate.
Over the next few weeks I'll be seeing a few people that I haven't seen in awhile. Truth be told, I'm very excited to see their reactions. Most people that are currently in my life have never seen me this small.
I haven't craved anything off plan since my PMS week. My last shipment of Medifast food arrived yesterday - some new and different things to keep my last weeks on the plan interesting. As of right now, I'm planning on being on the plan full time for 5 more weeks. (I'm going to blow my goal of 145 out of the water in that time!) Then I will be on transition for 6 weeks.
I've been blessed to be able to share this journey with those who are paying attention. You inspire me daily, and I hope that my story has inspired you to. Here's to us and becoming the best people we can be!
Have a fabulous week my friends! - B
Friday, March 4, 2011
Month 2 Stats
Weight: 154.1 (-10.1 for the month, 29.8 total)
Bust: 37 (-3.5 total)
Arm: 12.75 (-2.75 total)
Waist: 31 (-4.5 total)
Belly: 35.25 (-5.25 total)
Hips: 38 (-3.75 total)
Thigh: 21.75 (-3.5 total)
I've lost a total of 23.25 inches off of my body in 2 months! And I'm in a size 6 jeans! Lovin' it!
Bust: 37 (-3.5 total)
Arm: 12.75 (-2.75 total)
Waist: 31 (-4.5 total)
Belly: 35.25 (-5.25 total)
Hips: 38 (-3.75 total)
Thigh: 21.75 (-3.5 total)
I've lost a total of 23.25 inches off of my body in 2 months! And I'm in a size 6 jeans! Lovin' it!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Week 8 - I probably don't deserve it, but I'm glad it happened anyway!
Week 8 is in the books - down 2.6 lbs, putting me at 155.2, and a grand total loss of 28.7 lbs! Ladies and gents, I am 10.2 lbs away from my goal! I can't even believe it!
Considering I binged on chips and guacamole last Tuesday night, I probably should have gained. I wonder how much I would have lost if I hadn't! Anyway, was it worth it? At the moment, yes. I needed to feel full. I hadn't had that completely satisfied feeling in 7 weeks. I needed to feel it for just one meal. I did stick to the plan the rest of the week, even though I was in Bandon for 4 days with access to Coastal Mist chocolates and desserts. I was victorious and discovered a new exercise method that is fun in the process...Just Dance 2 and The Michael Jackson Experience games for the Wii. So fun! I can't afford either of them right now, so I'll have to wait to purchase them.
After I get down to less than 10 lbs to go, my mini-goal is to get to 149.9. When I get to that weight, I will officially be closer to 100 lbs than 200 lbs, which I haven't been since I was 22.
My last shipment of Medifast is on its way right now. With it, I will have enough food to get me to my goal and through the transition phase of the program. I am nervous about what life is going to be like after Medifast. My goal for this week is to write out some sample meal plans for myself, so that when I get there, I can use my plans to go shopping and not have to worry about grabbing whatever is in front of me to eat. I'm used to eating small meals 6 times a day now, so that will be easy. The hard part for me will be what to eat during those times. I will have to be very careful for awhile. I hope that by the time I even have to think about that, I will be so confident in myself, that it won't even be an issue.
Here's to you and supporting me on my journey! - B
Considering I binged on chips and guacamole last Tuesday night, I probably should have gained. I wonder how much I would have lost if I hadn't! Anyway, was it worth it? At the moment, yes. I needed to feel full. I hadn't had that completely satisfied feeling in 7 weeks. I needed to feel it for just one meal. I did stick to the plan the rest of the week, even though I was in Bandon for 4 days with access to Coastal Mist chocolates and desserts. I was victorious and discovered a new exercise method that is fun in the process...Just Dance 2 and The Michael Jackson Experience games for the Wii. So fun! I can't afford either of them right now, so I'll have to wait to purchase them.
After I get down to less than 10 lbs to go, my mini-goal is to get to 149.9. When I get to that weight, I will officially be closer to 100 lbs than 200 lbs, which I haven't been since I was 22.
My last shipment of Medifast is on its way right now. With it, I will have enough food to get me to my goal and through the transition phase of the program. I am nervous about what life is going to be like after Medifast. My goal for this week is to write out some sample meal plans for myself, so that when I get there, I can use my plans to go shopping and not have to worry about grabbing whatever is in front of me to eat. I'm used to eating small meals 6 times a day now, so that will be easy. The hard part for me will be what to eat during those times. I will have to be very careful for awhile. I hope that by the time I even have to think about that, I will be so confident in myself, that it won't even be an issue.
Here's to you and supporting me on my journey! - B
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Week 7 Complete - A 5 and a 6
Good morning! On this day, the start of my 8th week on Medifast, I report that I am officially 157.8 lbs, meaning I lost 2.3 lbs for the week, and 26.1 lbs total! Yay!!!!!
I can't tell you how excited I am to see that 5 - I am officially a lower weight than I have been since before Matt and I got engaged. I'm only 12.8 lbs away from my goal!
In other news, I tried on a size 6 dress at a little boutique here in town yesterday, and it fit perfectly! Eeee! I tried on a size 6 jeans, and I'm not quite there yet. They buttoned, but the muffin top I was sportin' along with a squished-to-nothingness booty, made me think that I should skip them for now. :)
One thing I'm really disappointed about right now is my wedding ring - it is officially too big for me to wear. It falls off all the time. I went to a jeweler yesterday to see what it would cost to get it resized, and they told me $250! I'm going to shop around for other prices, but if it is going to cost that much, I will have to wait for awhile. It breaks my heart (and Matt's) to not be wearing it, but I don't want to lose it. I've been wearing it on a chain around my neck. I did buy a silly ring yesterday to cope with the "naked" feeling you get when you don't have your wedding ring on, but it does not look like a wedding ring.
So, I have a confession to make. I'm going to eat Mexican food tonight. I've been craving chips and guacamole like you can't imagine. I'm not going to pig out - in fact, the only thing I'm going to eat off plan are the chips and guacamole. The rest of my meal will fit into lean and green guidelines. I'm ok with this decision...I hope I don't regret it at the end of the week...but if I do, I will have to be comfortable with the decision to go off plan.
Happy Tuesday! Ciao for now! - B
I can't tell you how excited I am to see that 5 - I am officially a lower weight than I have been since before Matt and I got engaged. I'm only 12.8 lbs away from my goal!
In other news, I tried on a size 6 dress at a little boutique here in town yesterday, and it fit perfectly! Eeee! I tried on a size 6 jeans, and I'm not quite there yet. They buttoned, but the muffin top I was sportin' along with a squished-to-nothingness booty, made me think that I should skip them for now. :)
One thing I'm really disappointed about right now is my wedding ring - it is officially too big for me to wear. It falls off all the time. I went to a jeweler yesterday to see what it would cost to get it resized, and they told me $250! I'm going to shop around for other prices, but if it is going to cost that much, I will have to wait for awhile. It breaks my heart (and Matt's) to not be wearing it, but I don't want to lose it. I've been wearing it on a chain around my neck. I did buy a silly ring yesterday to cope with the "naked" feeling you get when you don't have your wedding ring on, but it does not look like a wedding ring.
So, I have a confession to make. I'm going to eat Mexican food tonight. I've been craving chips and guacamole like you can't imagine. I'm not going to pig out - in fact, the only thing I'm going to eat off plan are the chips and guacamole. The rest of my meal will fit into lean and green guidelines. I'm ok with this decision...I hope I don't regret it at the end of the week...but if I do, I will have to be comfortable with the decision to go off plan.
Happy Tuesday! Ciao for now! - B
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Days 43-46: PMS
So, I've felt like a major b*tch for the last 24 hours. I was worried about it at first, but then I remembered this thing called a period...oh yeah. Haven't had one of those in quite awhile.
If you are sensitive to TMI, please, avert your eyes at this point.
I had an IUD "installed" in November - I was literally spotting until this last Monday. Uck. Then, just as the gray clouds were lifting, I started cramping. Feeling bloated. Getting irritable. My initial thought was, "Something is wrong...my IUD is doing weird things to my body or I am pregnant." Then, I realized that I "get" to start having periods again, and I think that is what I'm going through. PMS.
I'm sure you other ladies can relate to what my issue is here when it comes to staying motivated with a weight-loss plan. If I love chocolate with a passion the rest of the month, imagine how ravenous I am during this precious time. I also want carbs. Crusty bread with wine and cheese. Chicken Alfredo. Pizza with every topping known to man.
Yesterday was a tough day. I got half-way through it and almost threw in the towel. Matt and I were making plans for a date night, as my parents so graciously agreed to watch the kidlets, and Matt wanted to go out to dinner. Normally, I would have said, "sure, I can find a lean and green on the menu." But, I had my lean and green for lunch yesterday. (yum, btw. Mediterranean grilled chicken with zucchini and summer squash.) So, I told him that I didn't think I was strong enough to sit with him at a restaurant and watch him eat normal food. In my head I was thinking, "It's not fair that everyone else gets to eat normal food and I don't!" Wah, wah.
Anyway, he was fine doing something other than going out to dinner. We couldn't decide on a movie, and we couldn't think of something else to do (you get out of the loop when you only take 3 date nights a year on average.) so we were just going to drop the kids off and wing it.
From lunch time to the time Matt got home was torture. I almost called him and said, "Yes, let's go to Olive Garden so I can eat bottomless breadsticks and have a big ol' glass of red wine." But I didn't. I did however, give myself permission to indulge a bit. Not go off plan - but to have a few more carbs with on-plan recipes and foods than I would normally have. I made myself stuffed banana french toast (from www.newbeautifulme.blogspot.com) and it totally satisfied my sweet tooth. I literally drank a gallon of water.
And, I did it. I beat my cravings. I didn't give in. I won.
We ended up going to a movie at Northern Lights Theater in Salem. Matt ate pizza and had a beer, and I ate my caramel crunch Medifast bar and had a Diet Dr. Pepper. (won't do that again 2 hours before bedtime. I've been up since 2am.) We had a great time and I felt victorious.
I'm glad for this victory, because I'm not expecting a fantastic one on the scale this week. Not only because I went off plan on Valentine's Day, but because Aunt Flow is bound to arrive any day now. Good times. Good times.
TTFN! - B
If you are sensitive to TMI, please, avert your eyes at this point.
I had an IUD "installed" in November - I was literally spotting until this last Monday. Uck. Then, just as the gray clouds were lifting, I started cramping. Feeling bloated. Getting irritable. My initial thought was, "Something is wrong...my IUD is doing weird things to my body or I am pregnant." Then, I realized that I "get" to start having periods again, and I think that is what I'm going through. PMS.
I'm sure you other ladies can relate to what my issue is here when it comes to staying motivated with a weight-loss plan. If I love chocolate with a passion the rest of the month, imagine how ravenous I am during this precious time. I also want carbs. Crusty bread with wine and cheese. Chicken Alfredo. Pizza with every topping known to man.
Yesterday was a tough day. I got half-way through it and almost threw in the towel. Matt and I were making plans for a date night, as my parents so graciously agreed to watch the kidlets, and Matt wanted to go out to dinner. Normally, I would have said, "sure, I can find a lean and green on the menu." But, I had my lean and green for lunch yesterday. (yum, btw. Mediterranean grilled chicken with zucchini and summer squash.) So, I told him that I didn't think I was strong enough to sit with him at a restaurant and watch him eat normal food. In my head I was thinking, "It's not fair that everyone else gets to eat normal food and I don't!" Wah, wah.
Anyway, he was fine doing something other than going out to dinner. We couldn't decide on a movie, and we couldn't think of something else to do (you get out of the loop when you only take 3 date nights a year on average.) so we were just going to drop the kids off and wing it.
From lunch time to the time Matt got home was torture. I almost called him and said, "Yes, let's go to Olive Garden so I can eat bottomless breadsticks and have a big ol' glass of red wine." But I didn't. I did however, give myself permission to indulge a bit. Not go off plan - but to have a few more carbs with on-plan recipes and foods than I would normally have. I made myself stuffed banana french toast (from www.newbeautifulme.blogspot.com) and it totally satisfied my sweet tooth. I literally drank a gallon of water.
And, I did it. I beat my cravings. I didn't give in. I won.
We ended up going to a movie at Northern Lights Theater in Salem. Matt ate pizza and had a beer, and I ate my caramel crunch Medifast bar and had a Diet Dr. Pepper. (won't do that again 2 hours before bedtime. I've been up since 2am.) We had a great time and I felt victorious.
I'm glad for this victory, because I'm not expecting a fantastic one on the scale this week. Not only because I went off plan on Valentine's Day, but because Aunt Flow is bound to arrive any day now. Good times. Good times.
TTFN! - B
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Day 42 - Week 6 complete!
Okay, so clearly blogging every day is not something I can truly commit to. I am a busy lady...but, this blog is important to me, so I will write every couple of days to let you all know how I am doing.
That being said, I'm down 2.2 lbs this week! I'm at 160.1 lbs this morning. I was hoping to see the 5 after the 1 this week, but I know I'll see it next week, so it isn't a big deal. I've lost a total of 23.8 lbs, and only have 15.1 to go! I'm so close I can taste it!
The biggest non-scale victory for me this week was that I can really start to see the change in my face. I'm sure that other people noticed that right away since your face is one of the first places you typically lose weight, but it took awhile for me to see it. I've always had round cheeks, but now I can see that there are actually cheekbones in there!
Also, I've started to embrace other things about myself. I am realizing that I love my curly hair. It is big and wild and unruly, but with the right product, it's fun and sexy. I'm feeling so much better about myself now, that I don't feel like I have to change things like my hair to feel pretty.
Yesterday, as you all know, was Valentine's Day. Normally V Day is a weak time for me. I LOVE chocolate. Love it. With a dedicated passion most could not understand.
My darling husband made me a slight variation on a lean and green - a very healthy meal of salmon and sauteed vegetables. He used a few condiments that aren't on plan, but overall, a very healthy and tasty meal. (Thank you sweetheart!) For dessert I whipped up some chocolate mousse with berries, and we had some champagne. So, I'm out of ketosis, and not expecting a stellar loss this next week since it takes a few days to get back into ketosis, but the treat and lovely meal with my family was worth it to me.
I'll check back in with all of you as soon as I can! Happy Tuesday! - B
That being said, I'm down 2.2 lbs this week! I'm at 160.1 lbs this morning. I was hoping to see the 5 after the 1 this week, but I know I'll see it next week, so it isn't a big deal. I've lost a total of 23.8 lbs, and only have 15.1 to go! I'm so close I can taste it!
The biggest non-scale victory for me this week was that I can really start to see the change in my face. I'm sure that other people noticed that right away since your face is one of the first places you typically lose weight, but it took awhile for me to see it. I've always had round cheeks, but now I can see that there are actually cheekbones in there!
Also, I've started to embrace other things about myself. I am realizing that I love my curly hair. It is big and wild and unruly, but with the right product, it's fun and sexy. I'm feeling so much better about myself now, that I don't feel like I have to change things like my hair to feel pretty.
Yesterday, as you all know, was Valentine's Day. Normally V Day is a weak time for me. I LOVE chocolate. Love it. With a dedicated passion most could not understand.
My darling husband made me a slight variation on a lean and green - a very healthy meal of salmon and sauteed vegetables. He used a few condiments that aren't on plan, but overall, a very healthy and tasty meal. (Thank you sweetheart!) For dessert I whipped up some chocolate mousse with berries, and we had some champagne. So, I'm out of ketosis, and not expecting a stellar loss this next week since it takes a few days to get back into ketosis, but the treat and lovely meal with my family was worth it to me.
I'll check back in with all of you as soon as I can! Happy Tuesday! - B
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Days 37-38: Dress-up time!
I've enjoyed playing dress up in my own clothes the last couple of days. It is really fun to try on a dress or a top that I wouldn't have thought about wearing a month ago and have it fit so nicely or even in some cases be too big.
After the day I had before yesterday, I was feeling a bit down. Then Matt sent me an email that said he was feeling healthier (he too is on a mission to lose some weight) and that he was so grateful for my support and love. It made me feel a lot better about everything and helped me be strong today. I even made Valentine sugar cookies today and didn't taste them at all!
I hope everyone has a great Friday tomorrow! - B
After the day I had before yesterday, I was feeling a bit down. Then Matt sent me an email that said he was feeling healthier (he too is on a mission to lose some weight) and that he was so grateful for my support and love. It made me feel a lot better about everything and helped me be strong today. I even made Valentine sugar cookies today and didn't taste them at all!
I hope everyone has a great Friday tomorrow! - B
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Day 36 - Feeling a little bit weak
Yesterday I desperately wanted to cheat. I wanted to go through the McDonald's drive thru, order a quarter pounder with cheese and french fries, and throw in the towel on this whole diet thing.
I didn't. Thank goodness. I realize actually right now as I'm writing this, that yesterday was an incredibly stressful day for me. I'm dealing with some family stuff, and I wanted to soothe myself by eating. I did eat an extra medi-fast bar last night, but I'm ok with that. That's leaps and bounds above what I really wanted to do.
Even though I realize that the eating I wanted to do was stress-related, it doesn't take away the want at this point. As a stay-at-home mom, a lot of the other stress relieving things like taking a walk, reading a book, or screaming at the top of your lungs, are not possible all the time. Trust me, I'd love to just leave the house and go for a brisk walk whenever I feel like cheating, but naptimes, feedings, clean-up and general mommy-ness doesn't make it all that easy. This is not an excuse, it is just the way it is most of the time. I realize that I need to take a little bit of time to myself EVERY day, not just the days I feel overwhelmed. That will be my goal for this week - to take 10 minutes completely to myself when Matt is home. Not weight-loss related time, either. Just me time.
Need to get out of my funk and find my positive self again - have you seen her? - B
I didn't. Thank goodness. I realize actually right now as I'm writing this, that yesterday was an incredibly stressful day for me. I'm dealing with some family stuff, and I wanted to soothe myself by eating. I did eat an extra medi-fast bar last night, but I'm ok with that. That's leaps and bounds above what I really wanted to do.
Even though I realize that the eating I wanted to do was stress-related, it doesn't take away the want at this point. As a stay-at-home mom, a lot of the other stress relieving things like taking a walk, reading a book, or screaming at the top of your lungs, are not possible all the time. Trust me, I'd love to just leave the house and go for a brisk walk whenever I feel like cheating, but naptimes, feedings, clean-up and general mommy-ness doesn't make it all that easy. This is not an excuse, it is just the way it is most of the time. I realize that I need to take a little bit of time to myself EVERY day, not just the days I feel overwhelmed. That will be my goal for this week - to take 10 minutes completely to myself when Matt is home. Not weight-loss related time, either. Just me time.
Need to get out of my funk and find my positive self again - have you seen her? - B
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Day 35/Week 5: Down 3.5!
This morning the scale greeted me with a glorious 162.3 lbs. That's 3.5 lbs lost for the week, and a total of 21.6 in 5 weeks.
More importantly, I should note that I am now officially a lower weight than I have been since December of 2005. (158) After that I started gaining weight again, and the lowest I have been able to get since then was 163. It's so exciting to me that very soon, I will be back at that 158 mark, and then blow right past it.
I don't have much else to say! It feels great to be shrinking! Thank you everyone for all of your support! - B
More importantly, I should note that I am now officially a lower weight than I have been since December of 2005. (158) After that I started gaining weight again, and the lowest I have been able to get since then was 163. It's so exciting to me that very soon, I will be back at that 158 mark, and then blow right past it.
I don't have much else to say! It feels great to be shrinking! Thank you everyone for all of your support! - B
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